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Last week I entered into a discussion with a producer of high profile current affairs programme to tell my story, as the 'little person' directly affected by this hysteria.

I do have a concern about how credible I would be. Talking about 'me' does not come easy. There is a danger that my lack of confidence would end in tears and me being a jabbering wreck. Also, revelations and public exposure is going to have an impact on my family, former colleagues and neighbours, even today many do not actually know what has happened to me.

My father has always been pragmatic in his thought processes. "Those who do not stand by you are not worthy of your friendship. So, don't worry about the doubters" was his commentary on the subject of me going public. My greatest concern, is the risk of going public, about a sensitive subject. Many have fallen to a lure of self promotion and met head on the fickleness of the media. One day they are best buddies (to get the story), the next day they are clambering to discredit.

It is how to proctect myself from further harm which is difficult to fathom. 

Update: On Wednesday (29th September)  I had decided, following advice from several people, that I needed to see some closure and going public was part of this grieving and closure process. On Friday I had an email from the producer to say that after discussions with the editors they would have to disappoint me and they would not be proceeding.